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Former American Idol contestant David Archuleta has posted a lengthy message to his Instagram followers, a year after he publicly came out.
Prompted by Pride Month, Archuleta, 31, has a simple message for everyone: “Dare to be you.”
Last June, the Mormon-raised singer, who came second on the seventh season of the show in 2008, publicly came out via an Instagram post. He said then he was uncertain of his sexuality and thought he might be bisexual.
He has since talked about the challenges he faced accepting his sexuality, due largely to his faith and the messages he received from those around him.
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In his latest post, he talks at length about his attempts to be straight, including considering marriage with three different women.
“A year ago I was pulling weeds and felt in my heart I needed to open up about something that before I always considered unthinkable. Unimaginable. Always considered my greatest fear,” he began.
“But that day I felt peace with myself. I wasn’t afraid anymore of who all of me meant. Even if that meant I liked guys.
“I didn’t plan to come out during pride month. It was just the natural flow of events the days prior coming to terms with myself and deciding to say it out loud after ending an engagement I had to a great and understanding girl just a couple weeks before.
“I didn’t want to hide anymore. It was causing a lot of turmoil inside. Running from yourself when you’re always stuck with yourself. Isn’t the way to solve things.
“I thought marrying would solve it. She was one of three that I came close to marrying. Each time inside I knew something was wrong and I wasn’t being fully honest with myself or to the girls I was dating.
“They always thought it was them. I hope they know it was just me not understanding why I was the way I was. Why I couldn’t connect with them or like them more. Why I couldn’t have feelings you should when you’re in love with someone when it comes to that chemistry of physical attraction sufficient enough.
“I didn’t want to pretend just to have everyone think I looked like I had a picture-perfect life with a beautiful girl.”
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Archuleta continued, “A couple months before I ended the engagement one of my friends told me her story how she married someone who was part of the lgbt+ community. He tried to hide it too until he couldn’t anymore and she found out over a decade into their marriage. The anger and hatred he felt. The way he acted out on that. I felt sorry for her. But related to her ex-husband so much.
“I felt that same anger and hatred and resentment building and growing inside of me already. I didn’t want to be that. I knew the way to find peace was to let all of me come forward and not judge or despise myself. It’s made all of the difference.
“It was scary. Terrifying. You consider ending your life as a better option than coming to terms with being gay or lgbtqia+. I just want to let any of you going through that struggle know that it’s beautiful to be lgbt+ even if others don’t understand.
“Dare to be you. If those around you still don’t understand you will draw people to you who will love you for all of you! Not only for the parts they want to see and not just under conditions of you hiding your queerness because they don’t understand what that experience is like.
“If you’re queer, being queer is beautiful. Let yourself blossom.
“I was pulling weeds again when I wrote this lol. So decided to sit in the same spot I did last year. Even if it’s a day early.”
Archuleta included a photo of himself from a year ago and from this past weekend.
“They call it pride month,” he continued. “I’m learning what that means for me. To have pride in who all I am is. Including being gay or bi or queer. Idk what word to use I think queer is a good broad term lol. But I’m not too worried about picking either. I’m letting myself figure myself out with time.
“I spent 30 years trying to disregard it. I imagine it’ll take time to fully understand myself. I never thought it was something to be proud of but rather ashamed and why I tried so hard to change. I see why they encourage pride when we’ve always associated queerness with shame.
“But it really is something that is beautiful. So I hope you strip that shame and hate you may feel for yourself and replace it with love. Happy pride 🏳️🌈”
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The posting has prompted hundreds of comments. Many agreed that gay people marrying people of the opposite sex never works out well.
“I got married, had a child and still could not come to terms with my feelings,” said one. “I had to divorce when my daughter was 1. I could not continue to live with that ‘secret’ and have my daughter grow up with me having this ‘secret’. But I never left her without a Dad. I tried my best. Her Mom and I are now very good friends, my daughter loves me very much. My husband (30 years together) and I have been married for 6 years come July 1. It does work out once the ‘secret’ is released from you.”
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tjack47
He has the saddest eyes.
IanHunter
Looks scared and a depressed too. Hope he finds happiness.
Doug
That’s the first thing I noticed. Kind of made me want to give him a hug.
mz.sam
Well it’s about time…finally! It was highly suspect when this devout Mormon closet case stepped in front of American Idol stage in his teens and crushed Dreamgirl’s hit song, ‘I’m Not Living Without You’. Throughout his career he danced around his big secret to the press until now and realized his true rainbow-authentic self. Better late than never and Happy Queer Pride to Ms. David.
johncp56
Once again Religion shames someone good, he stayed with a faith that crippled him, maybe we need to judge their tax exempt status
rand503
I suspected the first time I saw him on Idol. Then I heard he had an overbearing father, so I’m sure he was part of the problem.
Knowing some Mormons, I am sure that there are many LBGTs who got married due to the pressure. Once he gets in a good place, he would be a great spokesperson to the mormon community that pressuring LBGTs to marry hurts lots of people and never comes to a good end.
Jack
He is the sweetest, most authentic man. There’s a long video on YouTube where he is talking about his struggle betwwen his relationship with his religion and his struggle to come out. I’m sad that some petty queens are going to tear him down here. It’s a reflection on you, not David.
bachy
The general public’s fanatical devotion to marriage and children is astonishing when you consider how many miserable, failed marriages and utterly horrible offspring there are in the world!
The real Bruce
All the years of pressure from the LDS to stifle who David Archuleta really is. What a shame! He’s still young and can still be heard and must be. Singing and speaking out, LOUD AND PROUD! And don’t ever be afraid to be YOU, David. Best wishes and go get em’! Someone is out there just made for you.
Terrycloth
@ Jack. I saw the YouTube video you spoke of. It was in Utah he spoke for quite awhile brought tears to my eyes .and then he sang a great song almost not making it through it..also after a vocal operation..he seems to be in a better place told the crowd to never be afraid of being who you are…thanks David. Happy Pride